I is Kind, I is Smart, I is Impo'nt

I don't make it a day to day habit to toot my own horn(I mean, not to a broad audience, anyway). And there is certainly a fair share of horn-tootin' to do. I'm smart as shit. I was reading by 2, and was writing full stories by five(The first one I remember was a dress-up doll book about a fawn that got lost. It was cute.) I tore through the advanced classes in school, until I stopped caring. I've managed to secure a damn good position at a very esteemed college despite having never gone to one myself.

And I'm not just smart. I produced and directed two full length shows on my own. I kept a household running on two minimum wage jobs while I did two plays at a time. I drove for years without a license and never got caught. I've driven through hurricanes, tornadoes, and blizzards. Even now, I manage to hold down an overpriced apartment with me job that really isn't paying me enough, with cash to spare and have fun with. And despite all the bullshit that I've put up with in this life(and trust me, it's been more than what I consider to be my fair share) and I've remained nice.

I is kind, I is smart, I is impo'nt, and I is hard workin', and I is good at things.

But no matter what I do, there are always people(and occasionally myself) shitting on me for what I don't have. There are jobs I'm twice over qualified for, but I don't have a degree. The theatre I work at gives me the crappiest spot in the lineup because I'm not with the in crowd. And I'm drawing rapidly close to a time when I know damn well that people are going to be having conversations that are over my head, because while they went to a nice college I was washing dishes and holding my station wagon together with duct tape.

This was mostly a brag and rant all rolled into one, so I don't suppose I have a real point. It's just exhausting that my choices have brought me here; a place where I'm stuck, because I decided not to put myself in debt for the rest of my life.  It doesn't feel fair. It doesn't seem right. But I guess that's just the way the cookie crumbles, eh?