Love is patient. Love is kind.
I've said before how that's one of my favorite phrases. It's in a song on the radio, now.
Yesterday, my boy was thinking about taking a job opportunity that would take him away from home for long periods of time. Obviously, this wasn't ideal. Well, ok, the thought made me physically ill. We got into a fight(and actual fight-I could barely believe it), so I asked to borrow the truck and take a drive. There's relatively little that can't be fixed with a good drive and a loud radio. Then, the song came on:
I can't change
Even if I tried
Even if I wanted to
But my love, she keeps me warm
She keeps me warm
Love is patient, love is kind
I'm not overly religious, but I know for a fact that sometimes things happen just when we need them to, and that music works as a perfect messenger. The words I've so often quoted to myself, sung back at me. When I got home last night, we had a long talk, and everything was resolved. We learned about each other. We strengthened that love. And he decided that maybe the job wasn't for him.
When I went to work this morning, I cleaned out a room that had been used by some young and drunk guests. The boy was much drunker, and had gotten into a disagreement with our innkeeper. I found a crumpled up note under the bed.
"A-
I am leaving you. I tried to keep the innkeeper from calling the police and you beat me up for it. You hit me so hard I was bleeding. Do not ever call me again. You are an alcoholic. I hope you get help.
-M"
They left together, so I don't think she gave it to him. And I wish I knew how to help her. But I have hopes that she'll find a way to leave him soon. It threw my relationship into sharp relief; How could I think I had it bad? Just because he didn't say no automatically to the job, because we had a fight, because he was being his logical self? No. I have it wonderful. He loves me so much, and so fully, that I will never have room to complain. But, pray for M. I pray for her too. I pray she finds what I have.
My love, my love, my love, he keeps me warm, he keeps me warm...
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