Stuck

I love my beautiful boy more than anyone or anything, but there's someone that has captured my attentions so fiercely that it's driving me insane. What is it about you, darlin', that has me wandering around this campus with the hopes of running in to you? Why does part of me just want to be around you?

It isn't a romantic sort of feeling(though I think kissing you would probably be sort of nice). I just want your friendship, your presence in my life.

I remember the time spent with you backstage. No one could get me in a picture, unless you were on the other side of the camera. You told me to smile, and I did. You tied me up in my hoodie, and it was funny. On my birthday, you found me a card and planned a party-my first ever. That card was one of the first things I hung on my new bedroom wall. You told me that life could be something entirely different from what I'd thought it would be, and believed that I could accomplish it.

I wish I could call you now, darlin'. When I heard that someone died this week, I thought of you first and I was so scared. And now I know that you're hurting, and we aren't close enough now for me to call you. But, I can wander around the campus, hoping that fate will cross our paths again. Maybe this time, we'll be going the same way.