Me and Elle and Asshole Too

I love the people I find myself surrounded by. I truly do. The boy is still something to me, if not something definable(or, at this point, important), and Tony is the best friend I've ever had.

But the two of them have gotten into this irksome little habit of telling me they don't care about what I'm talking about.

At first, it was gentle, and I almost appreciated that level of honesty-That rather than waste my time and theirs, sitting and listening with a glazed look in their eyes, they chose to be upfront about their feelings. That's good, I thought. That's healthy.

Tony was in a bad spot, and didn't have the energy to focus on my problems as well as his own. That was fair, and I've been there before(though I'm far more discreet, and will just let the messages go unread).

But this boy... Let's finally give him a name, shall we? Alex is a good one. Yes. Alex. Alex has decided that he doesn't care, and will be open with telling me so if I'm talking about something.

Well, I fuckin' care!

Really, does he think I give any sorts of shits about his latest Skyrim character or how his dealer changed phone numbers and he was having such a hard time getting a hold of him, and listen to this zombie game he wants to make!

I don't care about those things. Not even a little. I used to care a little, because they were parts of him, but even when I didn't I wouldn't say so. My Momma didn't raise me to tell people I didn't care about what they were thinking.

When you care about someone, you listen to what they have to say(assuming, of course, that it's not harmful). You don't make them feel like talking to you is a waste of time. Last night, I was talking about something, and I cut myself off mid-sentence. I was talking, and the little voice in my brain just went "Hey, you know he doesn't care, right?"

When I stopped talking, he asked what was wrong, so I said that it was nothing and it didn't matter. He started with his "Awww, baby", but I quickly changed the topic. If he doesn't care, then I'm not going to pretend he does, and I'm not going to force him to pretend. I'll talk to people who do care, people who want to know how my days are going.

Besides, we were starting Legally Blonde and Elle Woods waits for no one.